This week has been pretty terrible. I’ve been stressed and overwhelmed with readings, papers, interviews, packing, to-do lists and more. And I’ve been out of the Word. I’ve barely read my Bible or prayed all week.
But today I finally took 20 minutes and took some time to journal.
And it just hit me.
School, stress, grad school… none of this matters in the surpassing glory of Christ’s grace and love.
And oh how the war wages on
The battle of my heart
The face, the face of truth is what I want
And all that I’ve discovered is
Just tell yourself
Again and again and again
That nothing matters
All of our wealth, again and again and again
Pride will shatter
Our words will never be enough
‘Cause nothing matters
The things I chase
That status I crave
It’s nothing, it’s nothing
We invest with the bankers, but not in the maker
Think about it, think about it
And I am the culprit,
I am no saint
How long will I stand here
Obstructing love’s way?
Ephesians 1:3-14 was really speaking to me today. This is what matters.
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will—to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us. With all wisdom and understanding, he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times reach their fulfillment—to bring unity to all things in heaven and on earth under Christ.
“In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will, in order that we, who were the first to put our hope in Christ, might be for the praise of his glory. And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory.”